Mangi nibbi nibbi - I'm going home home

It's about 12:30pm on May 11th, 2012.My plane is scheduled to leave around 10:30pm (22:30) on May 11th, 2012. The taxi is picking me up between 7:30 and 8pm.
I have 7 hours left, 10 hours till my flight leaves.
Have I adjusted to "Dakar time"?! Quite possibly.

I didn't get any sleep last night.
I still need to get a few last minute gifts.
I still have a substantial amount of packing to do.
I have one Senegalese meal left (I plan to eat so much, not unlike usual, but this time I'm hopefully going to enjoy eating so much.)

I'm sort of a mess. These are some of the toughest goodbyes. I don't expect to get a significant amount of sleep in the next few days. (I can't sleep on planes, trains, cars, busses, etc. no matter how hard I try or how much I need sleep.) Instead, I'm hoping to use that time to, guess what, write blog posts!

Here's a wonderful song.
Coming Home by Boyce Avenue and DeStorm)

[Hook: Alejandro Manzano]
I’m coming home, I’m coming home
Tell the World I’m coming home
Let the rain wash away
All the pain of yesterday
I know my kingdom awaits
And they’ve forgiven my mistakes
I’m coming home, I’m coming home
Tell the World that I’m coming
[DeStorm]
I said I’m back up in this place
And I’m finally at the front of this race
And I ain’t going back,
I’ma rip this track so the World should remember my face
I said I’m back up in this place
And I’m finally at the front of this race
And I ain’t going back,
I’ma rip this track so the World should remember my face
I’ve been away for awhile
I gave my word when I returned
And I come back with a smile,
And I don’t come back at all
The World is throwing blows,
But I ain’t backing off
Everybody claiming they want to grow,
But they just slacking off
It took a lot of years to put the hood behind me
The best advice I got was that I had to find me
Another day, another challenge
I never thought I’d see the day I’d be rewarded for my talents
[Hook: Alejandro Manzano]
I’m coming home, I’m coming home
Tell the World I’m coming home
Let the rain wash away
All the pain of yesterday
I know my kingdom awaits
And they’ve forgiven my mistakes
I’m coming home, I’m coming home
Tell the World that I’m coming home
[DeStorm]
And if you ever call up,
And say you fell down
It feels good that I can finally help them all up
I’m doing well now,
Let’s go to the mall now
We ain’t gotta split the bill,
I told you I got all us
Came a long way from those ghettos on the east coast
The 7th letter, 6 number, flying high who needs coach
I miss my son up in my arms, miss my homies, miss my mom’s
So home cooking with the bomb
[Hook: Alejandro Manzano]
I’m coming home, I’m coming home
Tell the World I’m coming home
Let the rain wash away
All the pain of yesterday
I know my kingdom awaits
And they’ve forgiven my mistakes
I’m coming home, I’m coming home
Tell the World that I’m coming home
[DeStorm]
This once’s for all my people in the struggle,
Unemployed or working double shifts,
Take your head and lift it in the air,
One fist in the air
Reach for the stars, you’re almost there,
You can’t make it, I’ve been there,
You can’t take it, I’ve been there
Given that all the hope is gone,
Find something to focus on,
You need motivation,
That’s the reason why we play this song
To let you know you’re not out in this World on your own,
And the only time you’re going back,
Is when you’re going home
[Hook: Alejandro Manzano]
I’m coming home, I’m coming home
Tell the World I’m coming home
Let the rain wash away
All the pain of yesterday
I know my kingdom awaits
And they’ve forgiven my mistakes
I’m coming home, I’m coming home
Tell the World that I’m coming home

tukkinanu - we traveled

Oh the places you'll go, oh the things you'll see, oh the things that you neglect to blog about in a timely manner!!!

Several of the next blogs will be about various mini-trips that I've taken within Senegal. This blog will be rather short because I'm preparing to travel again this morning, this time largely on my own. Prayers for travel mercies would be much appreciated, though I'm confident that everything will work out fine. The other Beloit girls and I have had several interesting travel adventures this past semester, all of which have prepared me very well for embarking on this journey alone. (Granted, it is to a place that I have already been and I have good connections with people who live there. Don't worry, I'm being smart about traveling alone.)

Traveling has a way of taking me out of my “normal” way of seeing things, my normal framework for understanding myself, my life, and the world around me. It's often while traveling that I realize most strongly how far I actually am from “home”. It's been during the mini-trips that I've taken here that I've realized just how much my time here is a very long trip itself. Trips are trippy. :P

Trips are tough too. My sense of place is constantly changing, as is my sense of “home.” (Where do I consider home? What does home mean?)

I recently told a friend that I'd never before felt this conflicted about where “home” is and where I want to be. He wrote back that sometimes you need to be unstuck from where you think is home to realize that it's only inertia keeping you there (at least in some cases).

And an awesome song:

nu dem! - let's go!

So, my blog post have been, well, on Dakar time. To get the ball rolling, here's a short one that my friend tagged me in on her blog. Some responses are Senegal related...

1. How old are you? 20. Wow, really ?! I'm a baby compared to most of my friends but at the same time, 20 YEARS, that's a long time !
2. Who's your favorite singer? Shawn McDonald.
3. Would you rather text or e-mail? The obvious answer is that it depends. Right now, the immediacy of texting seems really appealing but e-mail tends to be more conducive to expressing what you're feeling or thinking.
4. Do you have any pets? Yep, a dog, cat, and several fish back home.
5. Do you have an Ipod? Yep.
6. Do you love to sing? Yep, LOVE to!
7. What's your favorite song in the whole world? Currently, “Open Wide” by Future of Forestry
8. Do you have your own room? Currently and at home, yes.
9. What is the color of your room? At home, pale/light green and bluish lavender.
10. What's your favorite hobby? Kayaking
11. If you could be a prodigy in any one thing, what would it be? Dance (just for the heck of it). It's been a secret goal of mine that I haven't worked on at all really.
12. You're going to a desert island and get to take 3 albums with you. Which 3? Simply Nothing by Shawn McDonald, 21 by Adele, The Best of U2
13. If you could (only) eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be? This delicious salad my host mom makes (parsley, mint, lettuce, tomatoes, shredded carrots, sautéd onions with sugar, potatoes, mustard-y sauce) with baguette.
14. And now I get to add one: A quote or piece of advice to live by: You're accountable for what you know. - Prof. Majeed

C'est la vie

It have several final papers/presentations due the beginning of next week so finishing up and posting blog entries has taken a back seat. C'est la vie. So, here are some of the everyday reminders that have been significant to my time here.

This sigh is less than a block away from my house. It reads "You (plural/formal) don't have (the) priority." There are so many ways to understand that sentence.

The Baobab Center has quotes posted throughout the center. These two have particularly stuck with me.

Lekkal! Eat!

This blog post has been in the works for quite some time and I'm sure there is much more I could add, but I haven't posted anything in a while (sorry about that), so here's a glimpse into what I've learned about food in Senegal so far. Please ignore typos and incomplete thoughts – I posted this in a rush.

Before coming to Senegal, I was a vegetarian. I hadn't eaten fish or red meat by choice in at least five years. I was a convenience vegetarian, not in the sense of whether or not being vegetarian was convenient for me but whether or not it was convenient for others. If everyone else wanted pepperoni pizza for example, I was fine just picking the pepperoni off or just eating it if picking it off wasn't appropriate. Last fall, when I was filling out the information sheet for my future host family, I chose not to mention being a vegetarian. I decided as I was filling out that form that my vegetarian-ness was not that important to maintain while here. I also knew, even at that point, that it is not easy to be vegetarian in Senegal.

I've eaten fish, beef, chicken, sheep, and probably several other animals while I've been here. I just don't ask about the meat. There are dibiteries (butchershops, though butcher stands is more descriptive) in every neighborhood. There are a few streets in my neighborhood lined with women cutting and selling fish. Interspersed between the fish stands are vegetable stands selling the standard veggies used in Senegalese cuisine: tomatoes, bitter tomatoes, carrots, something like cabbage, pumpkin, eggplant, potatoes, and another starchy vegetable. From what I know, these are the primary places where Senegalese get their produce. Likewise, there are a few boulangerie stands in every neighborhood which provide for the baguette needs of the community. Supermarkets are few and far between, and much smaller than ones back in the states (think the size of a fast food restaurant). Produce, fish, and bread are largely absent. Who needs a supermarket when there are boutiques that have small quantities of pretty much anything you'd need?! Each family has their “regular” boutique. Parents will send their kids to the boutique to buy certain things and to teach them about their involvement in the family.

A few weekends ago, I had a conversation with Mariam (my host sister) and Laci (the American who stayed with my host family several years ago and is now living with her Senegalese husband and teaching English) about eating meat. Laci is also a vegetarian. While Mariam doesn't particularly like meat, she couldn't wrap her mind around why Laci and I chose not to eat meat at all. After mentioning not liking the texture of meat and a few other things, Laci talked about the difference in proximity to the animals we eat. Here, it is fairly normal to see sheep around, to see people selling live chickens, for people to go fishing to catch dinner. People kill animals themselves for religious celebrations. I've known of several times this has happened since I've been here, though thankfully non have happened in my backyard. Animals live good lives here, and people have respect for the quality of the animal's life. Contrast that to the commercial meat industry in the US.

One of the biggest differences about eating here is that many people eat from one large dish (for lunch and dinner). I LOVE THIS, for the most part! Each person eats from their figurative “piece of the pie” but the meal is still deeply communal. The seating situation varies from family to family. Traditionally, women and men eat in separate areas, sit on a floor mat with the dish in the middle, and eat with their hands. Cutlery is overrated, overemphasized, over-idealized in Western culture. My family eats around a small coffee table, either outside or inside, depending on the weather. Some of us (usually my dad, brothers, and I) sit in plastic chairs while any others sit on small wood stools (my family only has 4-5 chairs). Mariam usually eats separately, and usually makes a baguette sandwich of whatever the meal is. When my host mom is home, she is usually the one who prepares the meal. When she's not, one of my female host cousins who is about my age prepares the meal. I don't know if they're actually related to my host family, but my family interacts with them as if they are. It is very common for Senegalese households to employ a young woman who cooks and cleans, a “bonne” in french. The kitchen is very much the woman's domain, and many men don't step foot in the kitchen and often don't know how to cook.

Another aspect of the meal that is very much the woman's role (as the mother or hostess) is distributing the food within the communal dish. Rice is spread throughout the dish but the fish and veggies (or other meat or appetizing things) are in the middle. Traditionally

“Neex naa lool!” (It's very delicious!)

I realize I've gotten this far in the post and still have yet to describe the food itself.

Breakfast: baguette, butter, tea. Sometimes chocolate spread.

Lunch (usually between 1:30 and 2:30 pm): always rice, usually with fish, almost always a traditional Senegalese dish

mafe: white rice with a peanut based sauce

ceebujin: red-ish oily rice (due to tomato based sauce) with fish and veggies

(I forgot the name): brown rice with meat gumbo

Dinner (usually between 8:30 and 9:30 pm): varies: often pasta dish, sometimes rice dish, sometimes couscous dish, sometimes salad dish (my favorite!!!)

Lunch is the main meal of the day; dinner is a light meal.

“Kay añ!”(Come, eat lunch!) My family normally eats lunch rather early. Somedays I head back to the Baobab Center right after lunch and in doing so, I see others just beginning to gather themselves for lunch, including some of the Baobab Center staff. “Kay añ!” they say to me, genuinely. Lunch is a plentiful meal, and the mentality of “no ko bokk” (we share it) applies to the meal. It is not just something to be shared with family but with friends and anyone who might come by, whether or not you know them). It is an act of hospitality to share a meal.

“Suur naa!” (I'm full!)

There are still days when my host family doesn't believe me when I say I'm full. “Lekkal, lekkal” (eat! Eat!), they ALWAYS say. Again, sharing a meal is an act of hospitality and it's important that guests are satisfied. The Baobab Center staff warned us that losing weight while here is seen as a slight disgrace by the host family.

People generally buy smaller quantities more frequently. One possible explanation is that higher levels of poverty means less flexibility with money.

Last week was spring break, and the other Beloit girls and I traveled to a few villages in the south-eastern part of Senegal. (I'll blog about it soon.) When we were asked what we wanted to eat for meals, the locals were pleasantly surprised that we were way more excited about eating traditional Senegalese dishes than the more western options like spaghetti.

Senegalese food is delicious and it has been an adventure to learn to eat like Senegalese do. I will certainly be bringing some aspects of the Senegalese attitude toward food and meals back with me to the states. Look forward to it!

Oh, we made ceebujin the other weekend. Neex naa looooool! This is an example of one bowl that 5-8 people will sit around and eat together.

Fish!

Rafet na! - It's beautiful!

Last weekend was the Senegalese presidential elections. My family and I spent most of the day in our backyard relaxing, playing, and cleaning the sheep. In the evening, we watched the TV as the votes were provisionally reported from different voting stations and regions. Officials from each voting station called in to the TV station and the call was broadcast live. Between phone calls, they showed footage of people standing in line to vote, picking up ballots, dropping them in the box of votes (for lack of a better word), and of officials counting votes. Watching democracy in action was beautiful. Especially because many of the voting stations were schools, especially because the vote counts were written on blackboards in Senegalese cursive, especially because the weekend had been peaceful.

Here's some of the beauty of that weekend:

The photographer, 6 year old Papito (a family friend).

My host mom and brothers (Moctar and Mohammad) preparing to wash our sheep. If you think giving a dog or cat a bath is hard and/or amusing, washing sheep is even more so.

Step #1: Tie the sheep to a cement brick so they can't run away. (Essential step)

One of my favorite pics. Teamwork!

My host sister, Mariam. She is beautiful, period. Over the course of the day, several child cousins and family friends came over (while their parents went to vote?). Watching her play with them and play mother to them in some ways was beautiful.

Possibly my favorite picture. Notice Mariam giving Papito bunny ears.

A beautiful moment.

An even more beautiful moment.

Ak xam xam – With knowledge

Last Wednesday in my Wolof class, the professor passed out a worksheet that he'd quickly thrown together that morning. The other Beloit girls and I have taken to referring to the worksheets he gives us for homework as “des cadeaux” (gifts) after he jokingly referred to our first worksheet as such. If he hasn't given us a worksheet by the end of class, we often give him a little grief about not having a gift to give us.

That day, the “cadeau” was not for homework but rather for us to discuss in-class in Wolof.

Among the questions:

What is the usefulness of education for humanity?

Seeking money or seeking knowledge, which is more importance? Why?

Is the lie that repairs better than the truth that destroys?

As we discussed the first two questions, we repeated the phrase “ak xam xam” (with knowledge) several times.

Ak xam xam, men na an liggey (one can have work)

Ak xam xam, men na waxtaan ak nit (one can talk with humanity)

Ak xam xam, men may ay lejaasa (one can give diplomas)

Ak xam xam, one develops oneself, a society develops.

Ak xam xam, men may xam xam (one can give knowledge)

What is knowledge? What is truth?

You are accountable for what you know. -Prof. Majeed

“Give knowledge”

The education system here is significantly different than the education system in the states. I could rattle your ears off with all the differences I've noticed but I for now I'll focus on just one: Knowledge is primarily something that you receive, not obtain. Libraries are often sparsely equipped and the internet is not widely or easily accessible. If you have a question, you don't “google” it, you ask a teacher. The other Beloit girls and I have noticed that the difference between the way many of the Baobab Center professors teach and the way many Beloit professors teach reflects this different perception of knowledge. At Beloit, much emphasis is placed on learning how to learn and exhibiting critical thinking. At the Baobab Center, the emphasis seems to be placed on understanding what the professors are teaching us, regardless of whether or not they are supporting the statements they're making. Granted, part of that emphasis is because the classes are held in French. Adjusting to this different way of learning is frustrating at times because my brain is so wired to question the information that is presented to me and to support the statements I make. Despite this frustration, I am grateful for the “insider” knowledge and insights our professors have given us. They have given us the gift of knowledge that we likely wouldn't have received otherwise.

If knowledge is power, when you give knowledge, you also give power.

For everything that I have learned in the classroom, I have learned leaps and bounds more outside the classroom. The notion of “informants” in social science field work – people within the culture informing you about the culture through your interactions- seems very true here and is much easier to see than back in the states.

I've heard it said that people come into our lives for a reason, bringing something we must learn. And we are led to those who help us most to grow if we let them and we help them in return. - "For Good" from Wicked

Philosopher Jacques Maritain: the culmination of knowledge is not conceptual but experiential.

If knowledge is power, when you give knowledge, you also give power.

Empire des Enfants

Addie, Val, and I have started teaching English at Empire des Enfants, a home for boys rescued from the streets of Dakar. Our partnership with them has so far been a roller coaster of eagerness, conviction, overwhelm, optimism, anxiety, different standards of communication, passion, frustration, creativity, and courage. Several times, we have questioned our involvement with the organization: What are the appropriate ways for us to help the organization? Are we causing harm? (Are we doing more harm than good?) What should we be teaching? Amid all the questions and thoughts, I was struck by the fact that knowing English is an incredibly valuable skill, a privilege, a gift. Who am I to keep it to myself?

You're accountable for what you know.

If knowledge is power, when you give knowledge, you also give power.

Education is definitely a ladder between social classe

All this about knowledge, what about truth? How are they connected? The same? Different?

So many thoughts!!!

This was a picture I took at a street school we visited within the first few weeks. The words read: We would like for all children to be able to go to school, especially the girls.